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So I write on here like once a year.  An update:  I'm now a junior, second semester.  I start the application/hiring process with the Indiana State Police in May and the Madison, WI PD sometime this summer.  I was hired on at the Kalamazoo County Sheriff's Department last summer.  That has been such a great experience for me.  I really love my work and feel that it is what I am called to do. 

It's so hard to believe that I only have one year left.  I honestly have no idea where the time has gone.  It seems just like yesterday I was walking into Smith Hall for the first time.  It is actually quite sad to think that I only have a year left.  I am going to miss my friends so much.  I think of the people that have left already, and the ones that are leaving this year....it sucks.

It has been a rough ride at AU.  Spiritually and emotionally.  The devil really likes to attack Christian schools I think.  The things that I struggle with the most make themselves so available here, and I have been weak to resist.  Chapel on tuesday was just what I needed.  It was nothing but worship, and though I'm not a very vocal person...the words echoed in my head and my heart.  I must rely on God.  I have to.  What else do I have to hang on to?  There is no way I can make it by myself.  That has been apparent this year.  I have tried to do things my way...and it just doesn't work out.  I don't know why I'm so hesitant to let God take over, I think I'm scared of the unknown.  But I know that with Him, I have nothing to be scared of.

I will fear no evil, for my God is with me.  And if my God is with me, whom then shall I fear?  You never let go.