| So I write on here like once a year. An update: I'm now a junior, second semester. I start the application/hiring process with the Indiana State Police in May and the Madison, WI PD sometime this summer. I was hired on at the Kalamazoo County Sheriff's Department last summer. That has been such a great experience for me. I really love my work and feel that it is what I am called to do. It's so hard to believe that I only have one year left. I honestly have no idea where the time has gone. It seems just like yesterday I was walking into Smith Hall for the first time. It is actually quite sad to think that I only have a year left. I am going to miss my friends so much. I think of the people that have left already, and the ones that are leaving this year....it sucks. It has been a rough ride at AU. Spiritually and emotionally. The devil really likes to attack Christian schools I think. The things that I struggle with the most make themselves so available here, and I have been weak to resist. Chapel on tuesday was just what I needed. It was nothing but worship, and though I'm not a very vocal person...the words echoed in my head and my heart. I must rely on God. I have to. What else do I have to hang on to? There is no way I can make it by myself. That has been apparent this year. I have tried to do things my way...and it just doesn't work out. I don't know why I'm so hesitant to let God take over, I think I'm scared of the unknown. But I know that with Him, I have nothing to be scared of. I will fear no evil, for my God is with me. And if my God is with me, whom then shall I fear? You never let go. |
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| Life is going....and that's about it...my paitence is about up...and that sucks...i have a couple big decisions to make soon...and i'm not sure what i'm gonna do...i'm in Novus Dux now and thats about the only good thing i have going right now...i'm sick of work...of class...of everything. |
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| It's hard to believe that we are a week away from spring break. This year has gone by so fast. A lot has happened...both good and bad, and I think I have grown a lot. I have my whole year planned out for next year...I get to start my crime classes...I'm so flippin excited! Korey and I are going to room together...that is going to be so sweet...it's just hard to believe that this year is almost over...only eight more weeks of class! anyway...i'm still a little confused w/a couple of things...but overall...my life is in order. things have been going so well lately...life is good. |
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| So I really am at a different point in my life. It has been a really good day. I am certain about some things. But unsure about others. I don't know how to take some things. But at the same time...am I not seeing them at all? I'm kinda confused. |
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